chia seeds

this has become my latest obsession. i’m not just now hearing about them, but ever since leaning more toward a plant-based life, chia seeds are popping up everywhere. and from what i can tell, there’s only great freaking things to say about it. so why not give it a whirl?

when i was in north carolina a year ago visiting family, i had a spoonful of a chia pudding that my cousin bought from whole foods. a pudding that her daughter and herself loved to eat whenever they could. i couldn’t get past the gel like texture. i mean, i didn’t really taste anything with that texture but the texture was just… ew. it was like biting a pimple or something!  so i think this is why i haven’t really looked more into chia seeds before now, but i do think the time has come to try to start experimenting a little.

what do i have to lose (besides a ton of freaking weight)?


fortunate will

i ate a lot of crap food over the long weekend. but i also still had a lot of juice and smoothies which lessened the amount of crap food, i’m sure. and this morning, i’m right back to where i was before the crap food invasion. this is my life now. one day at a time. one day might be with some added sugar or fries or pizza, but every day will include good choices too. and more than not, the good will outweigh the bad. a lot more. it’s just where i am. it’s just who i am. it’s just life now.



i’m sipping on coffee right now. my head is THROBBING and there’s no chance it’s PMS as i just finished bleeding yesterday (TMI oops). i’m drinking plenty of water so it’s not that either. and i don’t have any tylenol so coffee it is.

please go away horrible headache. now.

yesterday was spot on with food. completely plant-based!! aside from the old fashioned oats in the morning and the veggie burger (quinoa, black bean, corn) from Trader Joe’s, everything was straight up fruit and veg. dinner was a smoothie. a big ass smoothie.

today is going pretty much exactly the same as yesterday. it’s incredible what owning it – truly owning it- will do to your self esteem, eh? i feel like i can do anything. and i CAN.

i’m strong. i’m in control. complete control. these are all my choices, my decision. i so got this.

weekend eats

Friday night we ended up at a pizza place where I indulged in two big pieces of pizza. While I thoroughly enjoyed it and the cheese, I found myself nearly gagging on the sausage. I’m pretty much done with meat I think. Same goes with coffee. I still think about it but that’s about it. I don’t care anymore. I don’t get headaches or anything.

It’s really something how much I’ve changed this month- particularly with the foods I eat.

Saturday I juiced a buttload of grapefruit and oranges for us to enjoy over the weekend. And enjoy we did. It makes me so happy to know that Sabi is getting so many fresh nutrients in her.

In lieu of coffee, I had some grapefruit-orange juice and a bowl of banana and oats for breakfast.

Sabi and I were out the door by 11 to pick up one of her friends for dance class and after their class, I took the girls to lunch. I ate a sausage and pepper hash dish with two over easy eggs and two pieces of wheat toast. I ate it all and it was fucking amazing, I won’t lie. Absolutely delicious. And a big reason why I just can’t give up eating and do a juice-only fast. I just love food too much.

After lunch, the girls played at the park for a couple of hours and, finally, after dropping off the friend, Sabi and I stopped off at an amazing market I discovered. It’s been there forever but for some reason, I finally decided to check it out and man oh man am I glad I did. They had every freaking kind of vegetable and fruit lined up. It was amazing. And what was even more amazing (other than the awesome pricing and cleanliness of everything) was having my girl with me by my side excited and eager to shop for fresh produce. She picked out apples and oranges. She even suggested I get more beets for juicing!

I’m telling you, leading by example is KEY with kids. And I’m so freaking glad to finally be doing just that with my health and fitness. Better late than never and hopefully she’ll be able to continue on a path of clean living.

Saturday night I juiced a purple cabbage, purple kale leaves, a bunch of parsley, a lemon, two apples, and ginger. It wasn’t the best but I wasn’t about to toss it. I froze some of it and blended the rest with a banana and frozen pineapple for dinner. That was tastier. But then yesterday, before we went to the movies, I made another smoothie with more of this cabbage juice and frozen blueberries, frozen pineapple, a couple handfuls of spinach and a banana. Sincerely the BEST smoothie I’ve ever had.

At the movies I did have several handfuls of popcorn, then for dinner I had a bit of chow mein but I felt way too stuffed to eat much. And, frankly, it just wasn’t that tasty. Not like a fresh juice or smoothie.


no headache today. but guess what? i got my period late yesterday. totally fucking explains so much– the headaches the past couple of days, the fantasizing about shit food, the exhaustion by nighttime.

today i feel great though despite the horror show going on in the toilet.

last night instead of more juice i made blondie brownies out of chickpeas. CHICKPEAS. does that not sound nasty? they were AMAZING. i had several of those alongside a smoothie from the green juice and banana. plus i had a kale topped pizza made with a flatout wrap. not completely plant-based, but not mcdonald’s either.

today for lunch i went to the Protein Bar and got a lentil soup and green juice. delicious. both vegan. WHO AM I?

tonight i’ll drink some green juice before meeting family out for dinner where i will allow myself to make a poor choice for dinner.

this weekend will be spent juicing and drinking said juice. hizzah.

my choice

i have another headache today. dammit. i don’t like having headaches. i’m not sure if it’s PMS or that i haven’t had caffeine since last Monday– 10 days! it’s nice not spending those couple of dollars every day. and i’m able to arrive to work in plenty of time without feeling rushed. i miss my coffee, but i really don’t.

last night i blended a beet root juice i made (with cucumber, orange, cilantro, lemon) with a banana and WHOA was it good. and so filling. i may do that again tonight the green juice (kale, carrots, pear, lemon, ginger) i made last night. the texture is just SO delightful. it’s like having a creamy milk shake. and it’s 100% fabulous for me with no added fake anything!

while i don’t really crave certain foods much anymore, the past day  or so i’ve been really thinking a lot about eating something unhealthy. i’m PMSing something fierce and it would be so easy to blame it on that. and my fucking headache too, of course. still, i’m holding out on those thoughts for now and just trying to eat fruits and veg when i feel like i have to eat something. tomorrow night i have dinner plans at a chinese joint so i already know that meal won’t be the best… not gonna go crazy and choose poorly prior to then as well.

when i get home today, i’ll make another kale juice of some sort for tomorrow so i can have a big healthy dose of goodness before going for chinese.

putting it in writing will help make it stick. i choose to be clean and healthy. fuck yeah!

on choosing

despite yesterday’s headache, still no coffee as of today. i still want it and miss it oh so dearly, but i’m still choosing to stay away from it. much like i’m staying away from a lot of foods that aren’t plant-based these days. and without much problem, too.

last night, we ended up going out to eat with a friend and her two boys. it was completely unplanned. we rarely do anything like eat out at a restaurant during the work/school week. i was fortunate that i had gotten home an hour before picking up my girl from school so i had time to juice, and in fact, i timed the whole process; and from getting the produce out of the fridge to cleaning it to prepping it to juicing it to jarring the juice to cleaning the juicer and area, it took 40 minutes. i guess that’s not too bad, but it’s not as quick as grabbing something from McDonald’s.

anyway, at dinner i could’ve very easily chowed down on a huge chunk of freshly baked bread and butter but i didn’t. and it wasn’t a big deal. i could’ve very easily ordered a beautiful thick burger and fries but i didn’t. and, again, it wasn’t a big deal.

this isn’t the first time i’ve chosen to eat healthy and primarily plant-based when eating out (ended up with french onion soup and spinach and avocado salad), but it’s also not the norm for me. so until it becomes the norm, i’ll be so proud that i chose the foods that make me the healthiest.

also, as it nears shark week, this is generally when i choose the shit food… yet last night, despite having cramps, despite being super hungry, despite not being prepared and drinking juice beforehand, i went with the healthy option. and i didn’t even want a burger, really. the idea of putting meat in my mouth these days is just not appealing. and dairy is becoming less and less appealing.

i’m kind of digging this, truth be told. i’m enjoying juicing, i’m enjoying staying more plant-based. it feels good to do this. *I* feel good doing this. and i’m not counting calories or carbs or focusing on protein or portions. all i’m doing is choosing and sticking with naturally grown produce. it’s really not that difficult. and it’s rather damn tasty!