This week.

This week is not good for me. I just want to eat EVERYTHING and so far I’ve indulged quite a bit:

  • potato chips
  • fries
  • burgers
  • cookie butter

I’m pretty sure I can “blame” PMS but I checked the calendar and I’m not due to bleed for another two whole fucking weeks. If I continue to eat the way I have been the past several days for two more weeks… fuck me, will I be sick!

I haven’t been juicing either and that’s not good. Especially when it’s been 90 degrees out and the last thing I want to do when I get home is cook something. So, because I don’t have a juice ready to drink or smoothie-fy, I choose complete shit food.

It doesn’t help that I’m down to counting change until payday so I can’t afford to go buy fruits and veg to juice/smoothie-fy… and let’s face it, yeah? Shit food like the above bullets is way more affordable than lovely plant-based foods.

This is only one small step back. I will not fall down completely. I will stand back up and move forward once again starting now. Right now.


shit happens

This was a really good week with food. Really freaking good: Breakfasts have been mason jars of chia seeds, oats, and blueberries; lunches have been a small head of romaine and 5 or 6 bananas; dinners have been smoothies or sweet potatoes or guacamole.

Yesterday, however, dinner was a McChicken sandwich and large fries from McDonald’s. Fucking McDonald’s.

It’s just so easy to pick something up after a long day in the office and then hours at the playground. I know it’s just an excuse and I know I can and will do better. Especially after the shit storm that literally hit me last night when I had to wake three separate times to use the bathroom! Apparently I was just full of so much shit. Ha.

Yeah, I know that’s gross but whatever. Everyone shits.

Today I’m right back at the plant-based, whole foods eating.

Now if only I could start doing yoga or walking again…

Living it

This week has been damn good. Well, I’ve been damn good this week. My foods have been spot on. SPOT ON. I’m so proud of myself. Seriously. But more than that, I’m kind of in awe at how easy it really is to eat spot on and primarily plant-based! I’ve been incorporating a lot more bananas into my diet. And dates. Lord are dates yummy!!

I’m going to try to have fruits early in the day and then end each day with a salad or a homemade dressing/dip for some veggies (inspired by the incredibly vibrant Tannyraw on youtube and instagram). I think that’s why I’ve been adding more bananas into my diet. That and they’re cheap and payday isn’t until today.

Tomorrow, Joe Cross from Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead (FSND) is having a book discussion and book signing of his new book Juice it to Lose it. I’M GOING DAMMIT!! Maybe it’ll be the kick in the ass I need to go forth with a complete Juice Reboot. While FSND inspired me immensely to add more fruits, veggies, and juices into my life, I still haven’t done a Fast. I still haven’t been able to wrap my head around ONLY drinking juice for X amount of days. The idea of not chewing actual food scares me. I adore food so much. But maybe this new book, which I have yet to purchase and read, will help push me in that direction. (I’m not advocating anything to anyone, I’m just talking about me and my life and my health.)

All I know for sure is that I’ve pretty much proven to myself that eating plant-based and getting rid of the dairy and meat and processed shit food really and truly makes me feel SO. MUCH. MORE. ALIVE.

I feel healthy.

My weight is still not where it “should” be but by god, I feel fucking good.

And that… that is what it’s all about when you’re living the dream of living life to the fullest.

clean eating and PMS

Soooo I’m not sure what world I was living on last week when I wrote about how manageable and okay my PMS was… Dumbass that I am. If you build it, it will come– right? Yeah, well it came. The PMS came and knocked me so hard on my ass that I had to leave work early on Friday.

It started Thursday late in the day. The cramps. The headache. The wanting to bleed and get it over with. I slept like ass Thursday night and woke with a headache Friday. A headache that just kept on giving until I finally gave up around noon.

Turns out, I had a fever too (on Friday). Horrid cramps, horrid headache, and a fever. I went home and slept but felt like ass all weekend. The fever was gone as was the headache but I was insanely tired and just waiting to bleed.

As a result, I ate like shit. Pizza Friday night. Chips, pizza, cake Saturday (went to two birthday parties). Wine and more pizza yesterday.

My husband refused to buy me ice cream despite my begging for it. He knows- we all know- how sick I get after eating it (bloating, gas, upset stomach) and flat out refused to help my need. So both Saturday and Sunday, I came home and made myself my own chocolate peanut butter ice cream out of frozen bananas, cacao nibs, and peanut powder. DAMN DELICIOUS and no freaking ill effect!

Today I’m finally bleeding (TMI? oh well) so I’m feeling more normal, less MONSTER. Thank god. And that means I’m back to eating clean, eating mostly raw, eating plant-based. In fact, for lunch today, I’ve eaten mango slices, bananas, and romaine lettuce! And I’m satisfied and looking forward to some sort of salad and dressing for dinner tonight.


a new month

Here we are in May already.

I can write gobs and gobs on how fast the time flies, but then more time will pass and what good would come of that?

I’m really getting back into the swing of clean eating. Last Friday, after finally getting paid and having some money, the kid and I went to Costco and loaded up on oranges, bananas, spinach, coconut water, chia seeds, romaine lettuce heads, cucumbers, mini sweet peppers, carrots, mangoes, blackberries, dates… so much goodness. On Saturday we stopped off at Bed, Bath, and Beyond and I picked up some Debbie Meyer green boxes as well as some popsicle molds.

I spent lots of time Saturday and Sunday juicing, prepping produce, meal prepping for the week, etc. It felt good. In control.

All week so far I’ve eaten completely plant-based. And I gotta admit: I FEEL AMAZING.

I’m a week or so away from my period so the fact that I’m feeling so good, so in control… WOW. Kinda mind-blowing.

And here’s a kicker: I haven’t been working out. Normally the combo of eating good and working out makes me feel like a million bucks so the fact that I’m feeling so good during PMS without the exercise is a dream.

I’m back to at least two 16 ounces of juice a day (so 32 ounces/day). I’m making smoothies nearly every day too. It’s just too easy not to– especially when I’m really hungry after work. I just throw together a smoothie with some dates and bam!, I’m good for several hours.

I made a salad dressing/dip using our high speed blender and celery and hemp seeds as the base! WHO AM I? Well, I’m NOT one of the many you-tubers that I’ve been watching lately. There’s so many inspiring channels out there and for that I’m SO grateful. I’d be lost without them. TannyRaw, FullyRawKristina, Reach4Raw, Rawvanna, etc.

While I do eat cooked quinoa and some cooked veggies (like the Love Beets I picked up at Costco), what these ladies do and eat completely makes sense to me. And they inspire me every day to just keep going. I even ordered some Cacao Nibs to replace the dark chocolate I occasionally have!

And it’s not that I’m doing any of this to save the animals. I’m not doing this to be better than anyone. I’m not doing this for anything other than I FEEL AMAZING. Plus. It’s really and truly not that hard! And the more raw you eat, the easier your prep is so it can be even easier.

I just gotta keep on going and keep on moving forward.