fuckity fuck

i’ve gained back so much weight it’s not even funny.

i’m sure someone out there thinks it’s funny, but i don’t.

it’s all my fault, yes. nobody held a gun to my head and told me to stuff the pizza and cookie butter down my throat.

i did this all on my own just like i lost all the weight on my own just like i’ll fucking lose the goddamn weight again. on my own.

once again, i’m back at wanting to get some sort of weight loss surgery. it’s a tool not a cure and i really just need some fucking help to just keep goddamn going.

that said, i’m not giving up and will never ever ever revert back to where i was a couple years ago before being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes.

today is day one again. and today so far i’ve eaten 100% plant-based. all fruits and veggie with some oatmeal and seeds (chia). and i’m back to drinking a shitton of water and peeing all the time again.

I AM IN CONTROL.

I AM GOING TO SUCCEED.

I AM GOING TO FEEL GOOD AGAIN.

I AM GOING TO SHED MY BODY OF THE TOXINS.

I AM IN CONTROL.

I AM IN CONTROL.

I AM IN CONTROL.

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