one more week

I got an official letter of approval for surgery from my insurance yesterday. Not a day too soon at one week out, eh?! Seriously though, reading the letter… it brought tears to my eyes. Good tears because this is really and truly going to happen and I won’t have to figure out a way to pay for it (other than my deductible)… but sad tears because, if I’m being completely honest with myself, I can’t believe it’s come to this.

In one week I’ll be having surgery… To remove most of my stomach... In the hopes that it helps me lose weight and keep it off once and for all… Because I’ve had a lifelong battle with food… Because I’ve used food as my crutch, my drug of choice for nearly all my life.

That’s sad. To me, that is a sad fact to swallow.

When I told my husband I got teary reading the letter and why he said, “You don’t have to go through with it.”

“I do!” I responded. “I mean, of course I don’t have to do anything, but if I don’t do this… it’s like I’m giving up.”

We’ve both struggled with obesity for probably the same amount of time. So I know he understands. But I also know he’s a wee worried for me, which I understand.

Still, it’s all good. I’m really excited. For the first time┬ásince I can remember, I truly feel like I will be able to succeed at living a healthy and active life.

My goodness I can’t wait!






I think I may put off doing any more “hoops” for WLS till 2017.

I just found out that while my insurance will remain the same in 2017 (ours changes/updates/renews with every calendar year), any money I put toward my $1500 deductible will NOT carry over. According to the insurance company, they claim a lot of companies will allow money put toward deductibles in October thru December to carry over in to the first month or two of the new year but apparently mine doesn’t.

Thank god I checked with HR.

I’m still in the process of waiting on an email from the Sleep Study place. Once I get that email and fill out all the info they need, the same fucking info I’ve filled out at least half a dozen times now in the past two months, it will take them up to two weeks before getting back with me to schedule the fucking study. According to my insurance if the study is considered oupatient, which most apparently are, then I’m 80% covered– AFTER my deductible is met. I’ve only got a couple hundred dollars toward my deductible right now. So if I schedule this study this year, the money will go toward the deductible… but if the actual WLS doesn’t get scheduled till 2017, I have to start all over again with the money toward deductible. Right? I mean, that’s my understanding at least and I’ve talked to several different insurance reps in the past couple of months.

So yeah. I may hold off scheduling anything else till I know for sure whether or not his surgery can happen this year or not.

I guess. FUGH.