i’m sipping on coffee right now. my head is THROBBING and there’s no chance it’s PMS as i just finished bleeding yesterday (TMI oops). i’m drinking plenty of water so it’s not that either. and i don’t have any tylenol so coffee it is.

please go away horrible headache. now.

yesterday was spot on with food. completely plant-based!! aside from the old fashioned oats in the morning and the veggie burger (quinoa, black bean, corn) from Trader Joe’s, everything was straight up fruit and veg. dinner was a smoothie. a big ass smoothie.

today is going pretty much exactly the same as yesterday. it’s incredible what owning it – truly owning it- will do to your self esteem, eh? i feel like i can do anything. and i CAN.

i’m strong. i’m in control. complete control. these are all my choices, my decision. i so got this.


weekend eats

Friday night we ended up at a pizza place where I indulged in two big pieces of pizza. While I thoroughly enjoyed it and the cheese, I found myself nearly gagging on the sausage. I’m pretty much done with meat I think. Same goes with coffee. I still think about it but that’s about it. I don’t care anymore. I don’t get headaches or anything.

It’s really something how much I’ve changed this month- particularly with the foods I eat.

Saturday I juiced a buttload of grapefruit and oranges for us to enjoy over the weekend. And enjoy we did. It makes me so happy to know that Sabi is getting so many fresh nutrients in her.

In lieu of coffee, I had some grapefruit-orange juice and a bowl of banana and oats for breakfast.

Sabi and I were out the door by 11 to pick up one of her friends for dance class and after their class, I took the girls to lunch. I ate a sausage and pepper hash dish with two over easy eggs and two pieces of wheat toast. I ate it all and it was fucking amazing, I won’t lie. Absolutely delicious. And a big reason why I just can’t give up eating and do a juice-only fast. I just love food too much.

After lunch, the girls played at the park for a couple of hours and, finally, after dropping off the friend, Sabi and I stopped off at an amazing market I discovered. It’s been there forever but for some reason, I finally decided to check it out and man oh man am I glad I did. They had every freaking kind of vegetable and fruit lined up. It was amazing. And what was even more amazing (other than the awesome pricing and cleanliness of everything) was having my girl with me by my side excited and eager to shop for fresh produce. She picked out apples and oranges. She even suggested I get more beets for juicing!

I’m telling you, leading by example is KEY with kids. And I’m so freaking glad to finally be doing just that with my health and fitness. Better late than never and hopefully she’ll be able to continue on a path of clean living.

Saturday night I juiced a purple cabbage, purple kale leaves, a bunch of parsley, a lemon, two apples, and ginger. It wasn’t the best but I wasn’t about to toss it. I froze some of it and blended the rest with a banana and frozen pineapple for dinner. That was tastier. But then yesterday, before we went to the movies, I made another smoothie with more of this cabbage juice and frozen blueberries, frozen pineapple, a couple handfuls of spinach and a banana. Sincerely the BEST smoothie I’ve ever had.

At the movies I did have several handfuls of popcorn, then for dinner I had a bit of chow mein but I felt way too stuffed to eat much. And, frankly, it just wasn’t that tasty. Not like a fresh juice or smoothie.


no headache today. but guess what? i got my period late yesterday. totally fucking explains so much– the headaches the past couple of days, the fantasizing about shit food, the exhaustion by nighttime.

today i feel great though despite the horror show going on in the toilet.

last night instead of more juice i made blondie brownies out of chickpeas. CHICKPEAS. does that not sound nasty? they were AMAZING. i had several of those alongside a smoothie from the green juice and banana. plus i had a kale topped pizza made with a flatout wrap. not completely plant-based, but not mcdonald’s either.

today for lunch i went to the Protein Bar and got a lentil soup and green juice. delicious. both vegan. WHO AM I?

tonight i’ll drink some green juice before meeting family out for dinner where i will allow myself to make a poor choice for dinner.

this weekend will be spent juicing and drinking said juice. hizzah.

my choice

i have another headache today. dammit. i don’t like having headaches. i’m not sure if it’s PMS or that i haven’t had caffeine since last Monday– 10 days! it’s nice not spending those couple of dollars every day. and i’m able to arrive to work in plenty of time without feeling rushed. i miss my coffee, but i really don’t.

last night i blended a beet root juice i made (with cucumber, orange, cilantro, lemon) with a banana and WHOA was it good. and so filling. i may do that again tonight the green juice (kale, carrots, pear, lemon, ginger) i made last night. the texture is just SO delightful. it’s like having a creamy milk shake. and it’s 100% fabulous for me with no added fake anything!

while i don’t really crave certain foods much anymore, the past day  or so i’ve been really thinking a lot about eating something unhealthy. i’m PMSing something fierce and it would be so easy to blame it on that. and my fucking headache too, of course. still, i’m holding out on those thoughts for now and just trying to eat fruits and veg when i feel like i have to eat something. tomorrow night i have dinner plans at a chinese joint so i already know that meal won’t be the best… not gonna go crazy and choose poorly prior to then as well.

when i get home today, i’ll make another kale juice of some sort for tomorrow so i can have a big healthy dose of goodness before going for chinese.

putting it in writing will help make it stick. i choose to be clean and healthy. fuck yeah!

on choosing

despite yesterday’s headache, still no coffee as of today. i still want it and miss it oh so dearly, but i’m still choosing to stay away from it. much like i’m staying away from a lot of foods that aren’t plant-based these days. and without much problem, too.

last night, we ended up going out to eat with a friend and her two boys. it was completely unplanned. we rarely do anything like eat out at a restaurant during the work/school week. i was fortunate that i had gotten home an hour before picking up my girl from school so i had time to juice, and in fact, i timed the whole process; and from getting the produce out of the fridge to cleaning it to prepping it to juicing it to jarring the juice to cleaning the juicer and area, it took 40 minutes. i guess that’s not too bad, but it’s not as quick as grabbing something from McDonald’s.

anyway, at dinner i could’ve very easily chowed down on a huge chunk of freshly baked bread and butter but i didn’t. and it wasn’t a big deal. i could’ve very easily ordered a beautiful thick burger and fries but i didn’t. and, again, it wasn’t a big deal.

this isn’t the first time i’ve chosen to eat healthy and primarily plant-based when eating out (ended up with french onion soup and spinach and avocado salad), but it’s also not the norm for me. so until it becomes the norm, i’ll be so proud that i chose the foods that make me the healthiest.

also, as it nears shark week, this is generally when i choose the shit food… yet last night, despite having cramps, despite being super hungry, despite not being prepared and drinking juice beforehand, i went with the healthy option. and i didn’t even want a burger, really. the idea of putting meat in my mouth these days is just not appealing. and dairy is becoming less and less appealing.

i’m kind of digging this, truth be told. i’m enjoying juicing, i’m enjoying staying more plant-based. it feels good to do this. *I* feel good doing this. and i’m not counting calories or carbs or focusing on protein or portions. all i’m doing is choosing and sticking with naturally grown produce. it’s really not that difficult. and it’s rather damn tasty!




week two so far

Today I have a headache.

It’s one of the first days where I feel pretty healthy regarding the cough-fever-sinus thing I had going on for about a week. But I have a headache.

Pretty sure that’s a result of the no coffee I’ve had since last Monday. So 8 days ago. Not even on Sunday when I went to my mother’s for lunch to meet up with my brother and his family who are in from out of state did I have coffee.

Just to be clear: I FUCKING LOVE COFFEE.

I love so much about coffee it’s kind of scary.

But I’m choosing to try to keep it at bay.

I’m choosing to be the healthiest I can be, and I really feel like coffee drinks are hindering me from getting better results at the health thing.

All that said and done, my head hurts today and today may be the day I cave for one coffee. I’m gonna try not to, but life happens sometimes.

As for juicing, I’m still incorporating it into my every day. Sunday was the first day I’ve had meat in weeks. I’ve watched too many movies recently about the food industry and more and more I lean toward choosing to say no to meat and dairy and yes to plant-based foods.

I feel good. I feel lighter. I feel less bloated. I don’t really want shit food. THIS IS INCREDIBLE AND I WANT THESE FEELINGS TO LAST FOREVER.

I still eat, I just eat foods that are plant-based: oatmeal for breakfast; quinoa black bean veggie burger and broccoli slaw for lunch; potato for dinner. This has been very satisfying for me. And when I’m hungry outside of these times, I either drink a big glass of fresh, homemade juice and/or eat an orange or apple.

I’m enjoying eating like this but what I’m still getting used to is the prep involved to juice. It’s fucking super time consuming… figuring out what produce I have or need to pick up… figuring out which veg and fruit to clean and possibly chop… taking the time to put the juicer together and juice… storing the juice… cleaning the juicer… cleaning the kitchen. IT’S LIKE A FUCKING JOB to do this. Seriously.

Of course it probably doesn’t help that I have a slow juicer. I mean, I’m certain I have a good juicer and that I’m getting the most out of my produce with the least amount of pulp, but I also know that there are much faster juicers out there.

I just have to remind myself that I’ve spent a lifetime eating shit food and spending my time being a sloth, and taking the time to really take care of me and mine is worth it.


end of week one

I’ve been quite ill since my last post. Funny, eh? Or Ironic? I don’t know and it doesn’t really matter. What does matter is that I’m on the mend but it was a rough couple of days: Tuesday and Wednesday were spent primarily in bed all day fighting a fever and sleeping a lot. Yesterday I came into work nearly half day late and was so glad when the day was over. Today I was a bit late again, but not like yesterday and while I haven’t had a fever in a few days, I still feel like crap. I’m thinking bronchitis. Or just one bad mofo cold, I guess.

My juicer came yesterday and my girl and I juiced beetroot, oranges, carrots, lemon, ginger & tumeric. She was so excited to help me shove the produce in the juicer and watch the whole process unfold. I was too. And the end result? Delicious tangy goodness. Even the kid liked it!

This morning I drank a big glass of last night’s juice and will finish the rest when I get home.

As of today, I’m down 4 pounds in a week. I’ll freaking take it. I can’t wait to see what happens when I get to start working out again!